JaydaDawn

Roses, candy, and wine

This morning was great:)

Pete & I went to breakfast, had the house all to ourselves b/c the girls were both at friends- I love days like this.

My Husband was so cute last night- after I got off work I came home to unwind- I had the whole night to myself- from around 2 to 7 pm- Pete had gone golfing with some of his co workers. I didn't mind at all- infact I love it when he goes- I love to spend time alone- more than anything- and I want Pete to have fun in his life- because he deserves it- and he has always been so serious about everything.

Well when he got home he came into the house with a dozen roses- some of my favorite candy bars- and wine. He was being all sentimental to me- saying things, you know like sweet I love you things- and I thought maybe it was because he felt guilty that he was gone having fun with the guys- so I kept telling him- hon, your so sweet but really it's ok that you went golfing- I am not mad at all- infact I am glad that you went! I told him not to feel guilty- I promised him that it was ok-

this is the Jim in him- gosh he has had so many lately- but he knows me by now that I always have given him space because I so need it myself- maybe that's what has made it work for us all these years- we allow each other time to be alone- or do things that we both enjoy- and we don't get all pissed off or upset about it- we trust- and that's huge in a relationship.

  Jessica Sages Pre School Graduation- wasn't she the cutest thing you've ever seen!

her award was,"Little Miss Clothes n Bows" I would put those huge bows in her curly hair- and she always had the cutest clothes!

This was her last year-

I can't believe it's been a year.

And at this time she has new friends- thanks to cheer leading and I am so glad!

She has grown up so much this past year. It flies by- just like my marriage, we talk about it, Pete & I-- and we still feel like it just happened yesterday-

no one thought we would make it- no one ,and we had everything going against us- everything! Pete didn't even have a good job! We had no money and look at us now!

  I guess it's the kind that you never think have a chance that end up proving everybody else wrong.

Now he is building two million dollar mansions- and doing things that I never thought possible- and I keep thinking to myself

when and how did this all happen?

and no it's not always perfect but yeah it's worth it

  Kash is doing good! he wants to move out soon and I know I'll be sad, I can't even think about how upset that thought makes me- my baby boy going out on his own, especially when it was just yesterday we were all in the Hospital with him and Pete wouldn't let anyone hold him!

Where has the time gone?

and why can't we make those times in our lives that we were most happy last a little bit longer?

There are so many things, when I look back at my life that I wish I could do over- make moments and chapters last longer- and not take for granted what I had-

I just thank God that he blessed me with this Family I have now- the joys they have brought to my life, the happiness of security and Family.

I just have to keep reminding myself to live in the moment- and not take anything for granted..

PM ramblings

Having a much deserved glass of wine- - with me not working outside the home the past couple of years- it has been really difficult for me to work a full time job.

My hrs have only been 8:30 to 3:30 but by the time I get home I'm too tired to clean the house- or deal with my kids. How do working women do it? I've been so lucky, being able to focus all of my attention on my kids!

Today Amelia did have a Dentist app and had to get a couple of teeth pulled- she was so brave, I'm sure the happy gas made it more bearable.

  Sometimes it's so hard being a Mom- yesterday was one of those days-

I was driving Sage and her friends to tumbling and she was being so rude to me- "hurry Mom, or just being totally disrespectful to me- in front of her friends-

oh my gosh I remember being that way with Gram- now I guess I'm getting paid back for it- what goes around comes around but I really hate it- I was tempted to just pull over and make her get out of the car- but logically thinking I couldn't do that- oh but I wanted to smack her- I hate the stage of girls 14 to around 18- and Kash was never like this- I know we had our trails but Sage is a nightmare train wreck- she makes me cry sometimes- she gets me so upset- and there have been times I have mentioned something to Pete about wanting to divorce my own child?

I never would do that really-- but if there was a way I could ship her off for a few yrs I may considerate it.

I don't remember being this bad Mom? Maybe I was but I don't remember-

This week Pete has been cleaning the house for me- isn't that sweet or what? He doesn't want me to get too stressed out so he is making things as pleasant as possible while I go and try to make money for our Family.

I would love to start my own business in my own home but I don't know if that will ever happen.

Burger King knows me these mornings! Every day when they see me pulling up in my BMW they get the coke going! I only order a small- which is 3 pts- so I don't gain the weight- but I need at least some caffeine to get me going in the am- do I dare mention the fact that I also drink coffee before I leave the house?

I do, I'm not very good when it comes to my health and eating right- I have been lucky that all these years I have pretty much ate or drank whatever I wanted without it showing really-

Except in the boob department- my gosh I don't know where they came from! All of sudden one day they just grew, and grew, and grew, I never had that when I was younger?

I'm tired- alot of me rambling tonight is because I'm overwhelmed and tired- this is part of my winding down for the evening-

Amelia is almost as bad as Sage these days- she is such the drama queen and is so Dependant on me for everything. Even Pete says- she is too demanding.

Mom, Kylee's Nana takes so many pictures of her and then sends to me by email.

Cute huh! I can't believe School will be out for another year soon- in that way I'm glad I'll be working- I don't want to be around my girls fighting every morning!

Don't ask about the job Mom- I'm not going to say anything unless it works out- I've learned that lesson!

well it's now 9:30 and I've got to go to bed- or I will never make it tomorrow.

oh yesterday Pete said to me," Jayda, I can't imagine my life without you"

So sweet- I like to remember the good things.

I hate it when it says my name is supposed to be Jada instead of Jayda? I sure hope spell check works tonight..

Emma Lu with her friends.

Family Day Fun

I woke up to coffee from my Eme, she always makes me coffee on any special occasions:)

Pete cleaned up the house- did some dishes, and laundry- I ended up giving him his Birthday gift even though it's not until tomorrow he'll be the big 41~

Jessica sage came in this morning and laid by me in my bed- that alone was a wonderful Mom's day present from her! Just having her hug me, and say Happy Mothers Day Mom was shocking & wonderful- I'll take what I can get.

The day was going by and I was kinda wondering if my Kash would stop by and remember me- then we heard the car pulling up in the drive way- we always know with his music blasting!

he came in with beautiful flowers and my favorite reeses candy bar! He remembered me, I love my boy so very much!!

The card from Eme was so sweet, and then Jessica wrote me a Happy Mom's Day on a napkin cause she felt guilty!

Were going to eat together- and visit- it's so nice having Kash here with us. His room is all but packed up now, which makes me sad:(

Thinking of my Mom, and Gram on this day- I sent Mom flowers, and they went down to Grams grave to put flowers on it.

I miss you Grandma so much, have a beautiful day up in Heaven..

all my love

Jayda

My Mothers Day

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Eme's letter to me:)

Make a Smilebox free ecard

Nachoes at 2 am!

I just don't have time to Blog anymore and I'm getting frustrated! Wouldn't it be wonderful if I could actually get paid, and paid well to just sit and Blog all day!

Pete was so funny- we got my first pay check from Blogerads, I wasn't home but when he saw it he had to go ahead and open it! I can imagine his excitement as he was ripping through the envelope- high dollar signs swarming around his head, maybe $100, or no better yet what if $1000-- then he opens it and sees $25.00

What an insult! I made a big 25 dollars from Blogerads for one whole year!!!

We both laughed!!!!!

I love this one with Pete and Sage at the bottom- they look so cute together- that was back when she would throw major temper tantrums- freak out, scream, kick, and wiggle herself out from our arms- and we would just sit there and think, ok now what?

We had so much patience with that child.

I was pregnant with Amelia - I was sooooo very sick every single day- oh thank God I never have to live that part of my life over again!

Playing in the sun on our little get aways with Grandpa.

I think we miss those days the most with him.

Mom I dreamed about him the other night! He just wanted me to make sure to tell Pete not to be sad about him- and he was eager to have me let Pete know that Jim is always with him, closer than he can comprehend- and just mostly I got the feeling that Jim is always with us! And his love for Pete is beyond anything in this world..

  I just had to post this one!

I know you've seen it before but oh I love Sagey in her  hair roller net!!!

She was getting ready for her big dance Recital- remember Mom that you and Dad came too!

Precious moments- we laughed so hard when the tap show went flying out into the audience!!!

Last night Pete & I stayed up until 2 in the morning- so I am feeling it today!

Were laying their in bed and he says,"You know what sounds really good right now" I'm like, "Yeah, sleep" he says,"No, Nachoes"

so we decided to go get some!!!! It was fun- the longer I think about being married to this man- going on 20 yrs now- the more I realize that in order for me to have really grown up and be a good wife to him- I had to go through all the crap I went through in my twenties..

Painful, memories- and mistakes- helped me grow up and mature- and realize not to take this life, or any of the moments in it for granted.

By the time I met Pete I was very ready to settle down and was tired of playing the single game. I learned from my painful past- that I needed to start giving more instead of taking all the time, and to quit taking for granted those that I love.

memories on Monday

This is one of my favorite pictures- we loved our baby girl so much!

I get discouraged when I see how wrong I used to take pictures! The darkness in this one- what was I thinking? But you live and learn I guess.

Pete being really weird in the top one- we did spend time with his Mom when we lived in the North West-

I've got to go I have another busy day ahead of me again.

I will be back on Wednesday- I want to talk about this special 12 yr old boy I met over the weekend- he is Autistic- and he is the sweetest little person..

I'm glad I had the opportunity to meet him.

we had a nice weekend just hanging outside, listening to music- and lounging by the pool. I read and Pete does things to keep busy..

  I miss them this way- why couldn't they have stayed like that a little bit longer?

All or Nothing

back from errands: just had a nice lunch date with Pete- I told him about my exciting news but I'm not going to mention anything here right now because I don't want to jinx it.

My 14 yr old daughter has asked me to be their Cheer leading Coach! Yeah I know I cheered ten thousand yrs ago.. 80's style!

I was shocked but honored that her and some of her friends actually asked me- they hate their Coach- she is what they describe as lazy- and not supportive from what it sounds like she is only in this job to get the money, but doesn't want to put any effort into it.

After thinking about this for a few days I thought, why not- sure I'll give it a try- so I went in and talked to their Athletic Director- note here: This is the guy who I emailed last year and told him what an asshole I thought he was! I was very upset that my son never made the baseball team and I wanted this jock Coach to know that his decision not to include my son was the wrong one!

OK I know I'm one of those kind of Mom's but I know Kash's potential- I taught him baseball myself when he was 2- and he was always good in all sports growing up. We come to this new town and it doesn't take long to find out where your children stand in the School System. It is rigged from the beginning and only locals and Families that have been here forever get the breaks..

when I went in to see this guy again- I don't know if he remembered me or not- but I just told him about the girls wanting me to coach them- and their concerns and problems they have had this past year- he told me I would have to have a Bachelors Degree...

Damn I get so discouraged every time I am reminded of the one simple thing that I forgot about in this life.

He did say I could also get a Coach Certificate and take some classes over the Summer- so that left me with a little hope to be an Assistant Coach.

Jessica knows I am trying- I would be willing to be the best Assistant Coach I could be and help them all improve in their tumbling- stunts, and cheers.

You just have to have the heart and passion for it, and unfortunately these girls have been stuck with lazy lifeless people- yes their Coach could simply turn their team around from bad to excellent..

One thing about me, and you can ask anyone that knows me personally, I am and always have been a hard worker. I put my heart and soul into everything I do- like my jobs- I have to give my best efforts- I don't just go into it wanting the pay check- I wear my heart on my sleeve and you could say OCD a little bit on everything..

Speaking of giving things 100% effort here below is a picture of Pete & I after we took the Body For Life challenge. 12 weeks of 6 small meals a day- and one free day to eat what I wanted. I went from 123 to 107 lbs!

Yes I was proud- Pete did good too but not as good as me. Now I just need to get back into that again-- it's harder the older I get- but I know I have to.

We want your MONEY$$$$$

So much to say- so little time, a lot's been going on lately.

I have been so busy with the girls, and it's so hard for me when were driving in the car and they are fighting with each other! It makes me crazy this is one of the worst parts about being a Mom- listening to them argue!

We went to another Modeling Audition on Saturday- it was like another Barbizon, there all the same. I have  done a lot of research online seeking out the good ones from the scams and it says whenever they tell you they want your child but they have to go to a "School" for thousands your supposed to run the other way!

My girls had an interview with this Bitch lady- you know how when you first meet someone and you know right off weather your going to like them or not? Well she was on all three of our "Not Like" list!

Then they did a commercial- they were so cute. The Bitch lady told us that she would only pick 5% of the whole 1000% that attended that day with their stupid hopeful Families- just like myself! Of course they had to have a "Spark" or she just wouldn't waste her precious time-- she adds.

We left their thinking what a Bitch lady and we hoped we wouldn't get a call back. We are also walking downtown in the heart of Phoenix and all these grose men are saying things to us- and staring at my daughters.. Sage is like,"OK I'm like 5 why do they keep staring at me Mom?"

She is so funny when she wants to be.

We made a fun day out of it- we went to the movies and saw,"Baby Mama" it was cute- we did a little shopping- have I ever mentioned that I HATE SHOPPING WITH MY DAUGHTERS!!!

That is another thing that isn't so fun about being a Mom. Sage and I are total opposites- I hate what she likes, and she reminds me of Gram and Sharri in a way- it takes her FOREVER to decide- with me I run in the stores and grab whatever catches my eye- which has gotten me in a lot of trouble with Pete but I HATE being slow....

Story of Sage's life.

Anyway I gotta go for now- I'll be back later- I have some important errands to run and my shower is calling..

Oh and by the way we did get a call back from Bitch lady- she called Pete, big mistake number one!!!

He didn't like her tone, big mistake number 2!!

and well she was interested in both my girls- they had a spark, what a dork but it would cost between 3 and 5,000 dollars to get them polished up. Did I just say that?

Well I'm sure you know what Pete said!  Right, a big NO THANKS!!

Eme, Kylee, & Jess

May Moments:))

Make a slideshow - it's easy!

Keith sings three times but I love the song and it's fun to watch for me anyway:)